APPROVED!!!!!

I just got a call from the secretary over at the surgeon's office. She said I was approved. It seems that they were missing a page from the fax and didn't think I had an entire 6 months under the surgeons care. I am so happy. I was very upset yesterday. All I wanted to do was buy a pack of cigarettes, but I did not. I am so glad that I was able to stear clear of the temptation of doing so. I can already find myself being "that" former smoker. If you smoke then you know what I'm talking about. The one who tells you how easy it is to quit and to just do it and they hate the smell (well honestly I have hated the smell all along) but now I can actually smell it.

Insurance troubles..................

The surgeon's receptionist called me and told me that when they sent in for approval the insurance company sent back and was questioning my excercise and probably why I wasn't doing a whole lot more. I am having my chiropractor send a letter to them about the core strength training I am doing and that the broken back I sufford from 3 years ago has me limited in what I can do at the time. He is also going to state how the bariatric procedure will be beneficial to me.

Tomorrow I still go in for pre-op testing. I have to take a "sample" with me and I am having an endescope done. I guess he is going to put me under light sedation and go take a look at my stomach. I have been googling on how to get "the sample".

I am 1 month SMOKE FREE and loving it. I even survived Thanksgiving weekend with my extended family of smokers and was still just fine. I did use that Chantix a little in the beginning but had to stop because it was making my stomach hurt. Then when I went off of it, it sent my body in a whirl wind of emotions. I was ready to divorce my husband. I was hateful, I broke out into sweats, then I was freezing....it's not a very nice drug at all. It has even caused some people to commit suicide. But....it really does help you quit smoking. It's a catch 22 if you ask me. I normally don't get any side effects from prescription drugs, I think I got them all from Chantix. If you know anyone thinking about taking it, incourage them to really research it first.

Going on.....

2 weeks! Saturday at 9:30 pm is my mark. I am actually doing it. I am doing great too. I still want a cigarette not nearly as bad but the point is I don't have to have one. I hope it continues to be easy. I am using chantix, but I am only taking .5 mg as opposed to the 2 mg (1 two x's a day) when I tried this before it made me nauseous. I wondered if that was the feeling I would have when I was pregnant. If it is, then you can count me out. I was so sick for a whole week, all day and all night long. Except for about 20 minutes right after I ate something. It was a mix between hunger and nausea, weird weird weird sensation. I have read a lot about the chantix and it can cause ulcers and stuff like that. So I hope not to have to take it much longer.

She's Crafty

A few weeks ago a friend of mine at work had a baby shower. I had misplaced my camera and forgot that these photos were on my cell phone. I made my very first diaper cake. I think it turned out great. What do you think?

Mark Twain once said.....

"Quitting smoking is easy. I've done it a thousand times."

That statement just about says it all. This might be the hardest thing I've done. Well....okay it's not nearly as painful as when I had a broken back, but the physical withdraws are enough to make a person a little crazy. I have been smoke free for about 41 hours now. Yesterday was so much easier than today. I was fine all day until the evening and I almost caved in. Luckily my husband was supportive enough to not give me a cigarette. He reminded me why I am quitting (because I have to if I want my surgery) But today.....holy cow....I have anxiety, my chest is hurting, my neck is so stiff (I think these 2 are both anxiety related) but my head is also sweating and my ears are sort of clogged up. I am a total basket case. I know that tomorrow will be even worse. I don't want to cave, I want to quit, I just need these withdraws to go away. I don't have much will-power, I think that's the biggest problem. I want to ask you guys to please pray for me to be strong and that they side effects will lessen and leave QUICKLY!!! I will keep you posted.

Nice things in life

Steph tagged me, so in no paticular order I will name some.

1. Losing weight
2. Visiting Family
3. Shopping with a girlfriend
4. Quilting
5. The smell of rain
6. The smell of Fall
7. Having Freedom (which is slowly being taken away)
8. Having a job
9. A Loving Husband
10. Good Health

I lost

the5 lbs I gained from eating more food like the nutritionlist recomended. Now if it will continue to come off up until the surgery.

I wish I had more exciting stuff to blog. I guess I am pretty boring. I promise to get better at this and be more exciting (I hope)