Friday, May 29, 2009

They didn't keep me

I had my psych evaluation yesterday, late afternoon. I passed with flying colors, and I didn't even keep quiet...lol He was most concerned that I take an antidepressant and have for several years and my doctor has never made me go to a psychiatrist. But he made me take some mood test (which was rediculass btw) and I of coarse passed that with flying colors. Maybe he just doens't have faith in depression meds. Maybe he thinks depression can be cured by spilling your guts to a stranger, maybe he doens't know that it's considered very hereditary, regardless of what he thinks, I am quite happy and well with my meds. Now the next step is the nutrition councelor, which is next wednesday. I think I have to meet with her 3 times. One more thing, I started my chantix (the stop smoking pill) last week, I am now on the third day of not smoking. Well....supposed to be not smoking. I have lit up 3 or 4 cigs in those 3 days (only in the car) that's my trigger. I didn't smoke the whole things. And yesterday I only took a few puffs. So wish me luck.

Some of you know that hubby is out of town working in SC. I am taking the week of June 15th off to go and see him and also spend some time with all my cousins in Myrtle Beach. I started tanning Wednesday night to prepair my white self for the beach. I have tried tanning before, with no color change, no tan, no nothing. So I was quite scheptical going in. But I found the mother of all tanning salons. It's called Hollywood Tan. I have went twice at 4 minutes in the HT60 booth and already notice a color change. I just found out last night that hubby who was supposed to only be there 4-5 weeks has to stay the duration of the job, which is more like 2-3 months.....needless to say, I am NOT happy about this. I am going to miss him way too much. He tried to make it not so bad (when I was crying about it) saying that it'll make us closer or some crap like that. I know that I can do it. Honestly I am worried about him. We are both recovering drinkers and last time he had to work out of town, he was drinking. He doesn't hold his alcohol very well, he doesn't know when to stop. He got wasted and didn't know where he was. The next day he was so disappointed in himself he left the job and basically quit. When he went in to talk to his boss, he told him that he's an alcoholic and working out of town was too tempting for him. They let him keep his job. This was over a year ago. The boss' had a meeting about whether or not to allow him to go, because of the last time. So I guess they are trusting him as much as I am. He says he's strong enough now. I just know that it's awefully tempting, and why put yourself in that situation. He's doing it because it's a lot more money and he was laid off for 5 weeks and I need to get my taxes paid. But still, they would get paid anyways. Okay sorry for going on and on about that.

I have a question for those of you who are parents.....how do you punish a child (11) for lying. It's habitual and about everything. My mom used to put a bar of soap in my mouth. Is that considered child abuse in today's society? Because that's what I want to do to her.......

3 comments:

Introspective Steph said...

My mom did that to me once...and I never swore again (in front of her). I wouldn't consider that abuse...but i dunno.

I miss you too!!!

we have a lot of plans for our house...but first we have to buy a lawn mower, some caulk, furniture and a few other tools...

Aaron & Nancy said...

Good luck with that. Do you think the girl needs counseling? From what you told me, it sounds like she's been through a lot. Might be bigger issues...

Faith Penningtons said...

Nancy, I know that the girls need counseling. I had a VERY rough 2 weeks with them. The oldest, thinks she is a vampire (I am not kidding) she also believes in Zombies, she said she knows people who can bring back people from the dead or something like that. So she thinks it's real and zombies exist. She is also a Satanist. But she says it's not worshiping Satan, she says that everyone is their own god....I told her that's just what Satan wants her to think, and to believe all these things. I also told her she's not to bring any of that crap to my house. She is also a liar, but they've been taught that from their mother. So it's a learned behavoir. Their granmother used to be Wicken as well. .so the whole entire family is a bunch of nut jobs. Needless to say, I learned a lot this time when they were here, and they won't be back while their dad's not here. I won't make any of the arrangements. If he wants to see them or they want to come and visit, it's all on him from now on. They don't care about me or their dad to be honest. They just came over here so I would buy them stuff. When I dropped them off, they didn't even say goodbye or thank you to me, not even a hug.......I was pissed!! and still am a little about it. And the way that they left the bathroom....discusting. Dirty diapers and used pads were just left in there and wet nasty towels. I had to put on the rubber gloves and clean it asap. It was grose.